Am I Doing It Wrong?
Almost 2 years ago, I decided to leave San Francisco and return to my home state of Texas to pursue a new job with a small indie game developer known as Edge of Reality. Not to sound cliche, because I hate cliches, but since it's late, and I have a shit ton more packing to do, I'll put it bluntly: I had no idea what to expect when I left SF. I was taking on a position that was slightly outside my comfort zone, and leaving a city where I had established a great group of friends that I knew I would miss. Then again, all things happen for a reason, right?
Here's what I've experienced in the last 620 days or so:
I've experienced the joy of starting a new job. I've gotten to re-familiarize myself with a city (Austin) I've loved my entire life. I've rediscovered a place that has undergone a huge transformation in my 7 year absence while still maintaining its original soul and charm. I've experienced happiness like you wouldn't believe, and heartbreak so agonizing that there wasn't enough scotch on this planet to ease my pain. I learned to wake-surf off the back of a boat. I learned to adapt to Texas' brutal summers. I learned to drive again....for the first time in 4 years. I learned what it takes to be a strong & effective leader. I learned new skills and sharpened existing ones. And learned to put myself first, over my job.....
But most importantly, I progressed as a human being. I learned much more about the industry that I have devoted myself to for the last decade. I helped launch a new PC title. I met wonderful, new friends & colleagues. I established a broader network of contacts, friends, associates, and co-workers that I feel blessed to have made.
And that is what I've always set out to accomplish: To wake up tomorrow a better man than I was the day before. To excel and move forward. And as strange and contradicting as it sounds, I am moving forward once again.....by moving BACK to San Francisco.
I mainly write for myself, so I will spare myself the details, but I was given a unique opportunity to be a part of something that I feel will be very special. A rebirth, if you will, back into games media, where I believe I can help grow and improve on an already established brand and help bring it to the forefront of games entertainment and online pubications.
It was not an easy decision, by any means. I'm leaving behind my family, my friends, both old & new, and a great group of colleagues that I've come to cherish while working For Edge of Reality for the past 20 months. But I had to make a choice, and go with my gut. I wanted to take on this challenge. I wanted to succeed. I wanted to lead. And this was my opportunity.
So, now that the sappy stuff is outta the way, time to get real: I start my new job over at CBS Interactive in less than a week. I will first venture off to PAX Prime in Seattle where I will be exhibiting with Edge of Reality and hopefully showing off Loadout to thousands of new fans at the Indie Mega Booth, and then I will start a new adventure back in SF with CBSi by helping them grow and improve.
I'm excited to be a part of CBSi family, and I look forward to making new content with my new colleagues. I am no doubt lucky to have this opportunity, but I know I've earned it. I will continue to work on my personal projects with Chris Ostertag and Videograndpa, among many other endeavors, but I look forward to turning over a new leaf, and starting something new.
See you online...